Friday, February 01, 2008

Which mode you r in ??

When i watched Laga Chunari mein Dag, (sorry i went for it, actually situation made me watch it)
till next two days i didn't make any silly comment on any girl (Unbelievable but true), did spend my money very wisely & you can say that Sambhaw was behaving like a responsible, matured person.
When i went for HEY BABY for that particular week i was doing everything with my don't-care attitude .What the hell i have to do with the whole thing i am involved in.What job, what family,what relatives, what share-market speculations, everything was like nothing.If any thing pricking my conscience, was Value of life,value of the moment i am living in.I was behaving like a new-born-baby with no past,doesn't know whats future.It had all its sentences in present tense only.This person was knowing IS, neither WAS nor WILL.
After Tarein Zameen per again everything changed, this time i got nostalgic over the incidents from my past.I started thinking everything with a childish heart,which was purer than all other mundane stuffs.
One thing noticeable about me is that Since i started working in night shift, my belief in GOD has increased tremendously.Now i used to listen ANUP JALOTA.
So mindset keeps changing as on the situation.This is what i call different modes of mindset.It keeps changing from Family to Cool dude,from Childish to Bhakti (Bhakti includes everything MATRU,DESH,BHAGVAT everything).You can't assure of someone's behavior in a particular situation & interestingly neither can he himself.Its the Mode, that will decide every act he does,tone of each sentence from his mouth,the scale of vigor he puts in his work,everything...almost everything.

Infact for very short interval also it changes,like the day i watch Friends, for some time my response time gets decreased to 1/10th of its usual period.Even my all senses becomes active as never been before.
A very short-living but at the same time very strong impact can be seen is of Romantic Hollywood movies.I love romance shown in Hollywood, there only i find an irresistible surge of emotions.In Bollywood i think it is either pictured too good like Yash chopra's movie or really poor like Dharmesh darshan's one.In both the cases it looses the reality which is must in a romantic depiction of story in a movie.Recently i found some real stuffs in JAB WE MET, which had everything quite real including daily life language,situations, songs,everything fantastic.(But no more Jab we met in this post,sorry i couldn't stop myself writing a few lines about this movie).So all Romantic Hollywood movies leads to me in a mode which i never wanna go & with my strong will power or you can say the last desire for something else i am still successful in bringing me back from Romance mode to Real-professional-mode.
So i have started living my life in modes & it always reflects in my behavior,works & thinking everything.In fact to deal with some unavoidable situations i need to shift from one to another as per requirement in the same way as i need to change my mode from Hindi to English frequently while talking to Arun (my colleague, doesn't know Hindi) & Paul(my ex-roommate) at the same time.