m sorry for them....

Yesterday i was on my way to office, as usual was 35 mins late, so had to rush through the narrow roads,(filled with garbage) of S.G. Palya.If i get a chance to rate the roads of Bangalore out of 10, i would like to give it 11,its not bcoz i need to pass through it twice,rather its bcoz of lack of management here.You'll hardly feel like being in Bangalore here,although its 6 mins from the Forum.A number of times i had seen the gundas (officially should be said agents) of Bangalore development authority picking up bikes from the roadside of Koromangala but never found s them here, may be they also don't want to take a risk on pebbles.

Being an outsider,having no rights to take part in govt making process & the most important, as i am not paying tax to Bangalore Municipal corporation directly, so i should restrict myself from getting into this.

Okay m back on the track to office, i had just taken my second turn in the way, i got a well known face coming from opposite direction.Yes i cant afford to forget it as she was one of the two, helping me in all the general ELTP tests during the training.I was busy in playing computer games during lectures & during tests,was looking in all directions possible other than to my answer sheet .After training i had taken pretty much pain finding them on orkut & succeeded in getting the other one.You can imagine how special they should be if i truly respect them( i hardly do this for any women other than belonging to family & relatives).

But What is she doing here? as other than a solid contributer to the company's progress like me, used to be there in office at 10'o clock sharp.Then it struck me that her name was one among the names in firing list.

I donno why but all of a sudden i was not able to decide what to do now.Should i ignore her & cross without noticing her? but this will left her feeling like without IBM brand now she is not worthy enough to have a look upon.So i cant do this,but if i stop by her what answer she can have if i ask how r u doing?I knew this will be a killing moment for her,& for me also.I
couldnt get further time to make the tough decision & ended up saying Hi with a pretentious smile on my face.She also responded in the same manner although the intensity of pretension was much more than mine.I coildn't face her anymore & went going as if i don't know anything.
I was feeling like guilty of being in a company where she couldn't manage to be in,although there was nothing i had done for her leading to this state of her,but at the same time i couldn't do anything for her to avoid this.I pray to my Bhagawanji to give her the best she could have.

I know i am least emotionally-attached with the company,its performance,future or anything related to this.I am toatally professional here,infact much more than i could be.But when it comes to policy specially HR one, i totally dislike it.I think they r trying to imitate others in the field in some manners & gets confused to take the next step, or may be again waiting for others at this stage also.But when you r not totally the same,all other things r different from others how can you afford to do what others r doing?

2007 was the first year when this company started hiring like others.although was not completely successful,but managed to create a good number.All other things like compensation package,perks are different from others with a good margin.Problem lies here.

Being a great admirer of Charles Darvin(almost adore him),i don't find it wrong to sack people if you have an excuse of quality improvement.If you set up a criteria & find someone failing to that one, you cant afford to have them with an IBM badge.

But this is the thing you should have thought earlier when you were hunting for the students in the campus.Situation gets worse when you have taken people from two different backgrounds for the same kind of job.I havent mentioned ever in my posts that this year in ELTP batchs one can find students from Science background also other than Engineering one.I have nothing to do with that,infact i appreciate everything related to science.I believe if you are Good in science,you are much better than a person doing good in enginnering .

But the word Good in the first part of line is somewhat upper in my scale.So here some of them were good & some not so.But all the time they judgement they were on the same scale as we were (which i strongly condemn).How a ceiling fan be compared to a washing machine? Both has its own importance.

How can you take all your decision only on a single performance.How all the things done during almost two quarters can be a minnow opposite to the-single-day's Shark? This is not an entrance exam, the person you threw out was a damn IBMer in the same fashion u r & hence deserves more than this? If someone could listen to me,i demand a second chance for them as in all other companies.This is the time we people should start moving towards a union.Although i have always criticized unionization of any kind wiyhin an industry & this is one of the things i dislike about Non-IT companies.Infact most of the young minds think like the same way.

But if the situation is like this,how can one stop himself from changing his mind.

What do u say....mmm??

keep urself away...plz

Follow me not,
dont give me a call,
cant look back now
m numb to ur actions

yeah,m out of ur reach
u cant touch me now
cant pull me back
can step on my shadow,
not tangible enough to help u
can feel my smell in air
evanescent enough to ditch u

No u cant capture me anymore
not even the tiniest part o'mine
can have my attention
followed by ur regrets
m erasing the layers
from my past
u did imprint over

no u cant blame me
not even praise
cant ignore
coz my words will always be
echoing there
deep inside u

am afraid
the way u'r trying to hold me
can project me out of ur sight


m praying the sun to fall
no matter its morning or what
the breeze to be still
might be soothing to all
to make u deprived of
the slightest virtual feeling of mine